I saw forever in the velvet darkness

DreamScape/ The first of many nightmares 1 



Sleep overtook me. My bedside light seemed brighter and my duvet heavier, muffled sounds of the TV next door became distant noise and I released this was it. I cried. Not because it was the end but for everything I couldn’t say and everything that would never be. I pitied myself.

Nothingness surrounded me. The air was neither hot nor cold, dark nor light. I saw forever in the velvet darkness.

I woke up relieved. There was a way out of my prison.  Someone had handed me the key. 


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I sometimes dream of death as not the end but not a beginning either. It is something free from those restraints, from simple human defination. Death doesnt scare me, living does.